Things to be Thankful For

My posts have been pretty much nilch lately...Things have been busy and I have not been well. Adding on that, I was back in the hospital yesterday. It appears that my friendly kidney stone either decided not to leave my body and got hung up somewhere or that I had another one come about. So, after seeing my doctor he told me I better head to the ER to have them check me out since they had the equipment to do it on the spot. I wasn't able to get a definite answer due to them not wanting to do another CT scan, but instead an ultrasound. They were worried about me having so much radiation done to my body in such little time, and since there is still a possiblity that I could have more kids**, they wanted to be cautious.

I left the hospital with no complete answers because nothing came up on the ultrasound. The diagnosis was that to treat it like it was a kidney stone and if I feel worse to come back or see my doctor. I guess we will see how it goes. They gave me a very uncomfortable shot in my thigh to help the pain, so now I know how the girls feel when they get their shots in that area.

Yesterday wasn't fun for me between seeing my doctor and going to two different hospitals, one in which I yelled at the triage nurse because my doctor supposedly called them to tell them I was coming for a scan, but apparantly there was no record of it and that hospital didn't do scans on the weekend? I was upset, tired and irratable because the pain woke me up in the middle of the night...one where the girls were sleeping well.

Anyway, things got taken care of...On my way out to hospital #2, I said bye to the girls about 10 times. I didn't want to leave them. I got a lot of kisses from Bea and she said "love you" when I left, but then when she saw me driving away in the car she immediately started crying. Josh said she didn't stop for 15 minutes. I missed my family.

I really just wanted to be home with them but I knew medically, I needed to care of things and feel better. I couldn't wait to come home. When I did, I had two happy girls waiting for me. One that greeted me by running up to me and hugging me, book in hand as it was close to bedtime, and asked to read her a book. The other was hanging out in our bed and kicked her legs and started laughing on my arrival. Both had big smiles and it appeared that both missed me. Josh said that Bea kept saying "Mama home?" over and over the whole day/night. It was really the first time I had been away for that long on a weekend.

In any case, I also came home to an unbelievable clean and spotless house. It was beautiful. Then, after the girls had gone off to bed, Josh drew a bath for me complete with bubbles and candle and a laptop strategically placed that was playing "Sex in the City"...an unbelievable sight for me to see. Those days felt like so long ago. But, it was perfect. And just what I needed. And I was so in awe of my husband and him doing that for me.

And I was so glad to be in our home and with my family...so thankful that I have them. I can't imagine living life without them.

**I have decided that IF we have another child, I am doing it WITHOUT the epidural. The pain I have endured over the last month was WORSE than childbirth. Those talks are still in discussion....