The Overwhelming Holidays

Does anyone else feel that they are just NOT ready for the holidays this year?

I wanted everything to be perfect this year because Bea is more aware of everything, and yet, I just cannot seem to catch up. We finally got our tree this week and decorated it, and have done some holiday shopping, but that's about it. We haven't put up our holiday lights and we have not even begun our holiday cards. At this point, I'm ready to just throw my hands up in the air and say screw it. I feel just too overwhelmed about the cards, being that I still need to take a picture of the girls for it, write the letter, sign the cards and address the envelopes. And in the midst of all of this, I'm still figuring out Bea's birthday shindig, come the second week in January and fastly approaching....

I guess I shouldn't complain too much. We are headed down to L.A. today to visit a number of relatives on both sides of my family. It's truly an honor that Bea and Olivia will get to hang out with their Great Grandfather, so we are looking forward to that and spending time with family. But, we sure aren't looking forward to flying with two little girls on our laps. I apologize in advance to those who may be sitting next to us or near us. Shoot, I apologize to the whole damn plane as I know that Bea will probably be running up and down the aisles the entire time. I'm also paranoid that being in that confined space is going to get us all sick with that recycled air and all, just in time for Christmas. I guess we will see...but I am looking forward to this weekend and seeing everything in spite of all my gibberish ranting.

Maybe I also shouldn't be complaining because I will be off of work from next Wednesday until January 2nd and sure, I've got tons of time to get all that stuff done, right? I'm not one for being late on ANYTHING, so having our holiday cards arrive to people after Christmas makes my skin crawl. At least they will get there, right? But people, if you also only knew the huge project I have undertaken that is a present for Bea's birthday (that Josh doesn't even know about), and the few hours I have already put into it and probably need about 20 more to complete it, I just don't know how I am going to fit it all in. There's hope. And tomorrow is another day...

Oh, and happy holidays.